. l e t s . j u s t . f o r g e t .

Sun, 15 Jul 2007 02:25:45 GMT

My mom just told me, and I quote, "You screwed up our entire financial problem by moving in with your dad. All you do is take. YOu come over here, and take. YOU NEVER GIVE."

All of this because I said I didn't feel comfortable asking Ryan if he'd take my little sister to the store so she could get food. The relevance, I'm not sure. For the first time in... well, forever I don't care.

I'm a liar.

Wed, 11 Jul 2007 07:27:31 GMT

I don't know why it frustrates me so much, but my cats have fleas. It really is an irrational anger I have, I guess. I spent an hour today trying to hand-pick the fleas off, but not-so-quickly realized that my efforts were useless. My mom doesn't have the money (I don't think) to buy flea shampoo or anything like that, so I'm going to gather up all of my remaining money and buy it myself. Fleas can kill kittens. I had no clue until I read it online. They can cause kittens to become anemic and die.

Yeah. I'm getting that shampoo.

Hmmm.

Tue, 10 Jul 2007 20:19:38 GMT

Things are getting better, I suppose. In terms of everything, that is.

I don't want to talk about the parents, because whenever I bring them up I feel like a broken record. The point is, I'm out of here in roughly two years. I think I can manage until then.

Work has become so monotonous recently. But money is money, so I don't plan on stopping any time soon. However, I just saw a sign today advertising a new Noodles that is opening on Veterans. Not only is this an amazing idea, it's a really good chanc to make more than I'm already making. I want to apply, but I don't think I could handle my boss and coworkers being mad at me.

I've recently discovered the joys of having a camera plastered to my hands at all times. Not to mention the joys of having an MP3 player built into the camera. Thanks, dad. Because of you, I have constant access to my better-than-yours music.

Friends are good. I think everyone's getting back into the swing of things. Music Man is so close to being done and I think everyone (including the directors) is glad about that.

My summer is halfway done with and it's flying by faster than I think anyone expected. Soon, Ryan and everyone else will be gone. I think as things progress though, I'm beginning to realize that I won't be as alone as I thought. I still have Amber, Kyle, Shannon, Samm, and Andrew.

I can now confidentally say that things will be okay.

Sun, 08 Jul 2007 18:13:30 GMT

Camping was a complete success. Last night was full of memorable moments> Let me tell you, sitting underneath the stars in the country while listening to the Postal Service via stereo is one of the best feelings in the world.

Fri, 06 Jul 2007 17:46:49 GMT

It's all over, I guess.

Dad won custody. Mom didn't show up to court at all.

Despite the fact that she promised she'd fight for me, she didn't.

She didn't even show up.

If it wasn't for this numb feeling, I think I may be upset right now.

Something tells me this sin't the end of everything though.

Fri, 06 Jul 2007 08:01:01 GMT

Technically speaking, my parents are going to court today. The thought of it scares the living shit out of me, but I'm trying to be a stronger person. I want to take the punches as they come. And this is a very big swing that life is throwing my way. I don't want to have to see, hear, or speak to either of my parents after tomorrow, because I know that at least one of them is going to end up not wanting to have much to do with me or the other parents. It's so difficult to deal with two people who hate each otherm let alone the two people who brought me into this world. I'd give anything to be able to confidently choose between the two of them, but it just isn't possible.

I don't like this one bit...

Wed, 04 Jul 2007 19:40:58 GMT

Court between parents on Friday.

I'm not going. I like tot hink that there's no need for me to be there, even though the whole point of it is to decide where I will be living for the next year.

I've made a few decisions for the next few days (most of them are irrelevant, but who's to care?)

1. I'm saving up for a Sidekick 3. I'm becoming more materialistic and as much as it kind of scares me, I don't have the heart or motivation to try to stop it.

2. I want to go camping this weekend. (Which contradicts my last decision) I don't want to be in town or earshot of either of my parents for a while after Friday. If things go my dads way, my mom will be crushed which will, in turn, crush me. Then, if things go my moms way, my dad will be pissed and I'll have to hear about it for the next few weeks. We'll see.

3. I need to lay off my friends. I figured if I give them space of their own, i will be more comfortable with them. One of my biggest fears is the idea of my friends deciding they don't want me anymore. By giving them their own space, I may be avoiding that.

4. I really need to start working out. I would like to go back to school next year with a confidence I've never had before.

5. I need more money. To pay of debts and have something to look foward to in the future.

Needless to say, I've been thinking a lot. You decide whether or not that's a good thing.

Tue, 03 Jul 2007 19:46:35 GMT

Okay. As much as I hate to admit it, I want an iPhone really bad. The likelihood of me EVER getting one is very slim, since I'm extremely poor. But it's still something that I will gaze at whenever I see one. Im sure there are an endless amount of bugs right now, though. And I know the prices will drop dramatically within 30 days. So if I ever get one, it won't be within the next month.

I still have yet to pay that 700+ dollars that I owe for the fender-bender I experienced back in April. I'm working on it. That's what all of my paychecks are going towards. I've worked it out in my head, actually. If I pay 200 dollars every month (which is very doable. I make about 300 a month), I'll be done with all of this shit by the time I've been 17 for a month. I'm ready for it all to be over.

Summer theater has seriously driven me insane. I hate the musical and I hate having to go to rehearsals. 90% of the time, I don't even know what's going on. Not to mention the fact that Marv is a huge bitch and constantly yells at us. Whatever. Only a few more weeks.

Tue, 03 Jul 2007 07:21:30 GMT

I'm wiping this slate clean. I need to start keeping a journal. It's something I will be thankful for later, I think. So this is my (not so urgent) apology slash promise to uphold a day-to-day (with a few exceptions) documentation of how my life is changing, which it hasn't recently.

I got my first postcard...letter as a result of postcardx.net last Satruday. It caught me way off gaurd and it was one of the best things to be able to come home to. Let's just say that it was a long, unprofitable day. Never agree to be a waitress for a wedding full of shitty, rich, old schmucks.

Gah. I need to sleep. This insomnia is unhealthy. I'll update more.

Mon, 29 May 2006 19:12:39 GMT

My summer so far has been all about these children:

+Kyle
+Damek
+Shanni
[The Crew]

and

+shibby
+brie
+jesus

We are moving today and tomorrow :]]

Tue, 23 May 2006 18:37:59 GMT

yumbored

Wed, 10 May 2006 19:10:58 GMT

So here's how it goes.

Summer Theater audishes are coming up.
I'm hella nerviosa.

We have to move out of my house in about....3 weeks.

And we don't know where the hell we are going.
Which is slightly scary, ya dig?

I don't know.
i'm sure it will work itself out.

I made SaraMae the Shore a painting.

I don't like it. :/

I hope she will.

[And then Shannon proclaimed, "SHANNON DOES!"]

I write stories.......Not tragedies. Gigglegiggle.PANIC!

"I come from the land of the corn fields and insurance. We like to call it Bloom't'n, Ill'nah"

ohgoodnessyoz

Sat, 06 May 2006 20:08:43 GMT

I talked to rachel yesterday for the first time all week.

Things are gradually getting back to normal.

Thank god.

I am still sick of her side-kick though.

Fri, 28 Apr 2006 19:07:31 GMT

yumyumyum Circus Tomorrow♥

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 23:38:45 GMT

Damek asked me to go to his prom on may 13th.

hah :]

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 19:09:00 GMT

I can't trust even the people who are closest to me now.

great.

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 18:53:29 GMT

Okay.
So I'm sitting here in my little "Introduction to Business" class.
I know I should be working.
But, to be honest, I just dont want to.
I'm having a substantially good day.
School doesn't even seem real anymore, since it's almost over.
It feels as if we are just... being here to be here.
To say we completed the one-hundred-and-eighty-something days required to pass.
Oh well, I guess it's actually better than real school.

Whatever

I think I might go to the circus this weekend.
Which, in fact, would be beyond amazing.
I love the circus.
Yesss.
ANDAND I am going with Merideth,
the coolest 8th grader ever.
So.
I am one excited gal.

yumface

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 00:20:45 GMT

I promise to God to try to actually update this....
erhm...

yeah things are cool.
I have no more drama stuff
For [most likely] the rest of the year.
I was nominated for a Bloomie :D
Best newcomer what-what.

Yeaaah.

Agh. this is dumb now.
Ballllls

duh

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 02:31:59 GMT

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